Follow The water

There’s nothing wrong with us. At all.

I love that, more than you could ever know. We have yet to fight, yet to bicker, yet to be stressed about anything other than prom.

You’ve given me the first genuine smile that I’ve had in such a long time. I know that I can trust you with anything. You’re not going to hurt me and I’m all into you. I have all the faith in the world in you and I know that you’re going to hold up. You’re not going to make mistakes and hurt me. You want this just as bad as I do, and with that fire, baby we’re unstoppable. I just want you to know, that with every word we share, every glance, and every second we connect eyes, baby I fall for you more and more. There is honestly nothing wrong with you and I couldn’t ask for anything different about you. We’re going places together. If you’re willing, than so am I. 

I’ve been fighting for something I’m going to have again. I’ve been fighting for a girl that doesn’t give the credit that I deserve. I’ve done everything that I could’ve possibly done to make her mine again, but she has her heart set on moving on. The past three nights we were supposed to hang out and I was going to make it as perfect as possible, and hopefully get her back. That’d all be great if She didn’t stand me up all three nights. I fell in love with this girl September 21, 2009. We broke up February 17th. Since that night, I’ve done as much as I could to fight and show her that I want to be with her. Apparently that wasn’t good enough.

I guess I’m just laying here at 1:55 AM still waiting on a false hope that maybe she’ll show up. I know she wont but for some reason I can’t let myself fall asleep. I don’t understand it. I deserve so much better. So Much Better! I guess I put myself through this because I love her more than anything in the world.

I’m hoping that tomorrow I’ll wake up and be strong enough to not miss her. To not constantly think about her. I know it wont happen, but I can pray and dream right?

I’ve been left here without a choice. So from this point on I’m being forced to climb a mountain I never thought I would, but this is moving on.

I will overcome this.

The notes♥

(via 15oct2009)

Just so you know, this post is pure personal experiance. 

In the past couple of days I’ve come to realize myself and who I really am and how blind that I have been for the past two and a half years. 

I’ve learned that I’m the most naive person that I’ve ever heard of. I stayed with this girl for two and a half years, while all of my friends told me she was sleeping around. I never believed it until Saturday. 

Granted I feel dumb and like an idiot, but for future reference I’ve only become aware to listen to what others have to say. 

I’ve found love but I don’t think it was the real love. 

If you have to love again, You were never in love in the first place. 

I live by that quote and I’m doubting how much love really was in our relationship. If she slept around like she did, and when we weren’t together and I slept around like I did, than did we really care? Especially that we kept and are still doing it now? 

No I haven’t slept with anyone since the break-up, but I am talking to someone else. Someone who makes me happy all around. Maybe you could say that I’m jumping into things, but I feel like I’ll be happier with her, than with someone else. 

Now neither of us are solid long-term daters. I’m obviously an on and off guy and she’s not one for commitment. It’s not like we want to be those things but it’s just who we are. Neither case is entirely our fault. I told her that just because that’s what we’re known for doesn’t mean that we can’t change ourselves for our relationship. 

Now things are going great between us but nothing is set in stone. We’re still figuring things out and aren’t officially together, but I have a really good feeling about her. Let’s hope that I’m right.